It sounds so surreal to even say this. I’m actually a fiancée, YOUR fiancée! A couple of years ago when I made one of the toughest decisions of my life and decided to walk away from nearly a decade relationship, I felt that my life was upside down and if I can be honest, I really couldn’t see past that darkness, even when I tried my hardest to. But there you were…
There you were with your heart open to a girl who had decided to “close up shop” until further notice. There you were waiting in patience in the background, never pressuring me to move any faster than I felt comfortable. There you were never wavering as I felt the unstableness of my own life attacking from every side. There you were…always there.
As I think about our future, I can’t help but get excited. I’m literally preparing to marry and spend the rest of my life with my very best friend. The way you make me feel daily, I can only hope that every woman gets to feel this way before she leaves this earth. The way you endure everything this life throws your way, I can only hope that every man finds that same strength within themselves. And the way you love me, I can only pray that God blesses you in ways you can never imagine for loving his daughter the way you do.
Marriage has always been such a big deal to me. It’s definitely not something that I take lightly. I find myself constantly asking God to help me to be the wife you need me to be, the wife He has called me to be. I find myself asking Him to condition me to be your helpmate and to be your partner in this sometimes hard thing we call life. I find myself asking Him to help me to always remember who you are and why I fell in love when this life tries to throw trials our way to distract us from the love we have for one another. And if I can be quite blunt, lately I find myself just daydreaming, smiling, wondering how I got so blessed…
I want to take this time to publicly say thank you. Thank you for seeing me when I felt that no one else could. Thank you for pushing me to be my very best self. Thank you for looking past my brokenness and hanging on as I healed through it. Thank you for loving God and then loving me. Thank you for trusting me with your heart. Thank you for choosing me. I can never say it enough and I pray I never stop having more reasons to thank you again. I look forward to spending my life on this side with you and only you. I love you. And with that, let’s look forward to living our very BEST life!
